Straight from my heart - Part 1

This 2 series posts are very special to me. These are very close to my heart. I have spent day and nights thinking and thinking, and finally I have arrived at a decision.

I only hope this blog of mine and especially this post of mine never gets noticed at my workplace. I need to make sure, that I do not access my blog from office and clear the history from my browser.

Never mind, it should not stop me from writing this post.

In the month of May 2010, I received an employment opportunity with one of the organizations in Singapore. This was the first time I was about to work abroad. I accepted the offer and relocated to Singapore.

So now let me cut short my employment related thing, and talk about how I felt like.

I was seriously very happy on one side that, someone was providing me an opportunity to work abroad. (Else I would have to go in for a Visa, quit current job,move to another country, then look for a job there. Here i was rest assured of a job).

But on the other side, I felt I would be missing my parents, family, cousins, my car. I would miss out on long weekend drives, on Mysore Road, trips to neighboring places with my cousins.

Somehow I did not think much and just moved to Singapore.

Now that I am into my 9th month in Singapore, I can say that, I have learnt lots of things here, apart from work related stuffs, as a person I have grown matured. I hope my parents would be happier when they see me after a year.

Initially I was quite pleased about the whole aspect of working abroad, thought it would add great value to my resume. In other words, you can say for first 3-4 months in Singapore, I was on a high.

Later after 6 months of my stay over here, I realized I was missing loads of things. I had a crazy life style in Bangalore. I have always been under the shadow of my parents. I do not regret it even an inch, and I thank my parents for that.

After coming to Singapore, my life style was kind of different, I was no longer able to do those crazy things which I used to in Bangalore. So I thought and thought and then realized, I was more happier in Bangalore. So I decided to return back.

The problem  was I was in the middle of a contract, if I had to return back I would have to pay money. Hence I resisted the temptation of returning back after 7 months.

But now since the thought of returning back had come up in my mind, my heart started to feel happy. ( I dont know how to put it, but seriously somewhat my heart felt lighter).

The first thing, which comes to your mind when giving up current job is about your next venture. How are you going to find another job. The coming days, I started thinking of how to give interviews from Singapore to companies located in Bangalore.

I was and still am in touch with a friend of mine, who works for a company in Bangalore, asking him to get an interview opportunity for me. I even asked him if a telephonic interview was possible. Though it seems highly unlikely, he sure assured me he would do his best. In this current month, though my heart was happy I still was wondering, what would I do without a job in Bangalore. It still was pinching me, the whole idea of quitting Singapore job and landing jobless in Bangalore.

All these days, I was reading loads of blogs, travelogues, people who have travelled around Karnataka. I started to miss my weekend drives on highway even more.

I was wondering when would I feel better. Then came one such day, I was reading the blog of a person from Bangalore. The person had just quit his/her job in order to take up a career as a freelance writer/photographer and to pursue his/her interests in the year 2011. And when I read through the comments section I found out one more such person , who has just quit his high paying job in order to pursue his/her interests.

This kept me thinking. Finding a job in Bangalore was the biggest hurdle in me continuing to stay over here or coming back. I just gave a thought on this particular direction, about quitting the job over here whatever may be the case. I may get or may not get a job in Bangalore, but who cares.

Then I felt happy, seriously happy. My heart now feels better. I have nothing to worry. I can go back to Bangalore and look for a job over there. I have nothing to prove to anyone.

I have also decided on taking a month's break before joining.

Firstly thanks to these two people who literally influenced my decision. Secondly these days I end up reading loads of inspirational stuffs. I have posted few of them on facebook. Thanks to these guys too..

So now that I have decided to move back to Bangalore in the month of June 2011, I can now decide on what all the things which are all the unfulfilled desires of mine, and which are my interests which I am going to pursue in the year 2011.

Well, infact, I originally intended to write those things in this particular post, but never mind, I had a long (I hope not boring) story to tell. Will reserve those things for another post of mine.


Cheers,